Sunday, August 29, 2010
sweet poison
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Friday, August 27, 2010
day by day
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Tuesday, August 24, 2010
the lonely sun...
Why do I have to decide now my future that troubles me so?
What's the use of victory on a lonely journey?
A young boy who lives quietly, a quiet existence.
The moon that watched over this era starts talking to me.
If the signpost of your path were me
It would be good if you could shine on me brightly and with a strong heart.
The wave of pain that surrounds me is advancing on me,
in this kind of beach what can I do?
My beloved fate with you
is in a sad, lonely sea
but still I start swimming.
The lonely sun is shining.
Without knowing a red passion
burn out staying silent.
In a warmth that doesn't know the cold
the moon whispers as a lullaby,
the lonely sun goes on shining.
If the signpost of your path were me
It would be good if you could shine on me brightly and with a strong heart.
The unfortunate destiny of you and me
has dried up in an era that's become heartless.
but still I start walking
but still I start walking.
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Sunday, August 15, 2010
let go...
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Saturday, August 14, 2010
i'm sorry....
let me just say this to you... the one who loves me unconditionally, the one who gives me srength and provokes me to my victory. whenever that i feel alone, left and abandon like a broken toy in the dark alley of life, you gave me light in places that i couldn't think of. you are the moon that light my way along this broken path. you are my sun that hides behind the clouds. even when i can't see you, i know that you are there, always watching over me and treasure me from above. you are the rainbow that comes after a stormy day, coloring my sorry days. you are the antidote for the poisons in my life. you are the love i search in this divine cruelty of such a world. in you i give my trust, my soul and my life. i may not be a knight in shining armour that strut my way into the battlefield, defending everything in your name. nor a priest that speaks of sermons of god's thoughts. i may not be a hippie that see everything in this world as peaceful and carefree as the animals that jauntily hop around in the woods. i may be neurotic, thinking that everybody is never be pleased when they talk to me. i may be a hypocrite that let myself be carried by the current of life. i may be a person that occupies a devilish tongue with a cold heart and soul. i may be all that... but.. you still except me for whoever i am.
i'm never afraid of the dark, but welcome it instead. i do welcome the dark. because in the dark, i can imagine that i'm not even there, not even exist, disappear in the oblivion darkness. becoming one with it once and for all. but you pulled me away from all that, with your brightly shine and warm. you let me be in the light, where everything will be alright an secured. i was the baby that was hold gently by you. i feel safe within your grace. you make me want to stand up against my-unsecure-self and fight for my freedom towards these binds that ties me to the dreadful world.
i know that i've hurt you for my wrong doings. i know your heart are twinge with the stabs like a knife with my twisted words . i know because it hurts me too. you've shed your tears one too many times, turn your back against your own beliefs because you wanna have faith in me. you've let yourself in a roller coaster ride when you let me into your life. i know you deserves better in life. i know you've closed the doors to your dreams just to see mine coming true. i know that you wish nothing but praying for my success in life. but sometimes those dreams of yours for me are too big for me to fill. for that i am sorry.
i am sorry because i couldn't be like you always wanted me to. i'm sorry because i can't follow your advices and follow what my hearts says instead. i'm sorry for making you worry about me too much till you couldn't sleep at night. i'm sorry that i can't be someone that you are proud of.
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Thursday, August 12, 2010
someone to fall back on
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Thursday, August 5, 2010
to someone that deserves this...
these words are for those who were called friends... i've been keeping these feelings inside me, and it fetids me. i've become scared of the word friends. REAL FRIENDS. i've become scared of shaking hands with somebody new, just because i once did it with you. do you still remember? or have you forgotten?
i've known you for quite sometimes now. but i couldn't put my finger on what was wrong with us. u made me laugh, u made me smile and u made me be me. for better or for worse, u were there,saying that u would give your hand to me so that i won' t fall. even if i would fall to the ground-with your gentle smile you said that you'd helped me on my own two feet. when i was trembling, trying to walk again, you steadied me and walked besides me. i thought that was for real.
i thought you and i would never be apart. together, we tried to get by . we tried to find the leprechaun's gold at the end of a rainbow. together, we walked through the rain with our smile on our faces. how i wished i knew that those smile was nothing but fake. do yo still remember, the times we spent under that shady tree, drinking ice lemon tea and talked just about anything? sometimes we would just lie on our backs, looking at the bluest sky and had nothing in the world to care. we would take a nap on each other's side, and played till it was dusk. i wish i could turn back to those times. because i still want to believe in you.
DO you still remember, when we used to have sleepovers, we would be staying up all night and talked about your prince? how you brighten up at the mention of him. DO you still remember? when you ran into my arms when you found out that your prince already have a princess by his side? how red and puffy your eyes were back then. " be strong," i once said. DO you remember? that moment when something troubles you, i would rushed to you and stayed through all those trouble times? DO you still remember? even at the back of your mind or at the bottom of your heart, i hope there are still rooms for these memories. because i still wanna believe in you.
like a storm that came quietly, you left me hanging here. because you said that we are different now. i was thunder-strucked that tears failed to come out and washed my shock away. only the inclement days in my heart mends those wounds that can never be treated medically. i tried to hate you, but i failed doing so because of the memories of you and me filled my head till it hurts too much to bear. i tried to forget you and get you out of my mind. but i can't either because i treasured you with all my heart. the knife called betrayal which you stabbed deep into my heart wasn't enough to flush those memories we shared away. through the nights how i wished, i really wished, that the we'd never met. that would be easier...
i've closed my doors to everyone that handed me their friendship. i pretend that i was happy and laugh as hard as i could so that everyone wouldn't have to worry about me. i found that it's hard to lend my trust. i find it hard to start a conversation with someone new. so i only listen, becoming a third person. it wasn't so bad after all. i didn't get hurt because i am always on the verge of neither. i've become neither black nor white. i've made a fortress that barricades me towards the outside world. i've crumbled one to many times, but i managed to built myself up on my own. i stand on own two feet, not wanting to depend myself on other anymore, just like what i did to you.
BUT LET ME TELL YOU ONE THING. i'm happy this way because THERE ARE STILL PEOPLE WHO CARE. people who asked me how i was holding up after you abandon me like a broken toy. after you left, things aren't always BAD. because i'm still living, breathing, and doing everything that i love. in those thunderous storms, i found shelter that keeps me warm and dry till the storm has disperse.
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Tuesday, August 3, 2010
more than
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Monday, August 2, 2010
will you hate me?
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noise
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